Russell T Davies ya fi son ya kalli gefen haske. Lokacin da gungun masu kula da bas suka yi masa dukan tsiya saboda luwadi, ya ce, "An yi wa mutane dukan tsiya mafi muni fiye da ni, wannan kawai ɗan dukan tsiya ne a titi." Lokacin da jadawalin samar da wasan kwaikwayonsa na dystopian Years and Years ya tilasta masa komawa aiki cikin kwanaki bayan mutuwar mijinsa, ya ce, "Rubutu ya kasance kyakkyawan kuɓuta." Ko da labari game da mahaifinsa "mai tauri" da ya kira shi "mutumin jiya" bayan ya fara barin a matsayin showrunner a Doctor Who yana ƙarewa da farin ciki: "Na san ba haka nake ba." Yana da sauƙi a ga yadda ya sami suna a matsayin mutumin da ya fi kowa son juna a TV, idan ba a duniya ba. To me ya sa ya fara ajiye wuƙa ta kicin a ƙofar gidansa, "a shirye don amfani"?
"Ana kirana ɗan luwadi da yara da mai shirya yara a kan layi daga mutane kamar [mahaliccin Father Ted kuma mai fafutukar adawa da trans] Graham Linehan, kuma yanzu mutane sun yarda da abin da suka karanta. Mutane sun yarda idan an gaya musu Duniya tana da lebur," in ji shi. Taimakonsa ga haƙƙin trans ya haifar da shekaru na barazanar kisa da zarge-zargen "mai shirya yara," waɗanda ya saba watsi da su. "Amma duniyar kan layi tana zama duniyar gaske. Mutane sun gano adireshina, kuma wani ya zo gidana. Idan ka yarda ɗan luwadi da yara yana zaune a nan, ba wani abu mafi hauka ba ne a zo ka same ni. Na yi shekaru ina cewa haƙƙoƙinmu siriri ne kamar takarda, kuma ga mu nan. Abin da ke ba ni tsoro shi ne ba zan iya ganin ƙarshensa ba. Babu abin da zai kawar da waɗannan masu mulkin fasaha – zai buƙaci wani irin juyin juya hali don hana su. Don haka a karon farko a tarihi, ƙiyayya ana samun kuɗi ta hanyar algorithm."
Davies, mai shekaru 63, shi ne babban marubucin tarihin rayuwar queer na Biritaniya, bayan ya yi suna da Queer As Folk mai ban mamaki (kuma mai ban mamaki) a 1999. Wasan kwaikwayon ya bi rayuwar maza uku masu luwadi a Manchester, kuma ya kasance babban nasara ba tare da tsokana ba. The Daily Mail ya rubuta cewa, "Duk wata al'umma da ta yarda da wannan … [tana] da niyyar halaka." Daga cikin rigingimun akwai yadda aka nuna jima'i na dare ɗaya tsakanin Stuart, mai shekaru 29, da Nathan, mai shekaru 15. A yanayin yau, inda ake yawan zargin maza masu luwadi da shirya yara, shin zai sake rubuta irin wannan labarin mai tayar da hankali? "Zan yi," in ji shi. "Ko da yake ya ɗan bambanta a kwanakin nan – domin a 1999 Nathan zai kasance a makaranta ƙarƙashin sashe na 28 [doka da ta hana 'inganta' luwadi], ma'ana ba shi da wanda zai yi magana da shi. Ina ƙoƙarin cewa, 'Abin da zai faru ke nan.' Tabbas, Nathan yana son a yi masa jima'i, kuma ba shi da wanda zai yi magana da shi game da shi. Mutane suna cewa: 'Ya Allah, yana da shekaru 15, wannan haramun ne.' Wasan kwaikwayo ne!"
Duba hoto a cikakken alloAidan Gillen da Craig Kelly a wani sashe na Queer as Folk, 1999. Hoto: Channel 4
Duba hoto a cikakken alloƳan wasan kwaikwayo da ma'aikatan Queer as Folk, Canal Street, Manchester, 1998. Hoto: Godiya ga Russell T Davies
Muna haɗuwa don tattauna The Queerest of Folk, tarihin rayuwar Davies a matsayin showrunner da ya fi shahara a Biritaniya. A baya ya soki sabbin marubutan TV na ƙarni na sabo da fifita wakilci mai kyau kan kyakkyawan ba da labari – sha'awarsa tana cikin bambance-bambance. Wasan kwaikwayonsa na baya-bayan nan, Tip Toe, game da rikici mai zafi tsakanin maƙwabta a ƙarshen siyasa daban-daban wanda ya rikiɗe zuwa wani mummunan tashin hankali, ya ɓata wa wasu masu kallo rai ta hanyar haɗa da wata hali mai sukar jinsi, Stephanie. Me ya ƙarfafa ta? "Ina ganin yana da muhimmanci a ji duk muryoyi. Years and Years da It's a Sin duk suna da manyan halayen luwadi waɗanda suka kasance masu jefa ƙuri'a na Tory – idan ka kalli yawancin wasan kwaikwayo za ka yi tsammani waɗannan mutane ba su wanzu. Na san mutanen da suke sukar jinsi. Duk gardamar tana da tsauri sosai har ga wasu mutane kasancewar tana sukar jinsi yana nufin tana iya zama mai kisa, wanda shi ne shirme. Waɗannan mutane ne da suke da damuwa ta gaske, kuma waɗannan damuwar suna buƙatar tattaunawa. Ina muhawara?" Wani hali, Melba, yana ba da jawabi mai ƙarfi game da yanayin haƙƙin LGBTQ+, tare da ɗan ambaton "mata da suka fusata, kuma da dalili mai kyau." Me yake nufi? "Yana cewa watakila ya yarda da ra'ayin mai sukar jinsi kan wasannin mata. Mun bar shi a fili, amma me ya sa za a ɗauka cewa babu wani ɗan luwadi na camp da zai taɓa faɗin haka? Me ya sa abin mamaki ne? Zan iya tafiya a Canal Street yanzu in same ka sarauniya drag na dama. Yana da muhimmanci a nuna hakan. Nuna waɗannan sarƙaƙƙiya wani ɓangare ne na aikina."
Davies ƙato ne na talabijin – kuma a rayuwa ta gaske ma. Tsawonsa na ƙafa 6 da inci 6 yana cika ƙofar gidansa na Swansea, inda yake gaishe ni da hannaye buɗeɓɓu na gaske. A ciki, na ji daɗi ganin TV a kunne; sananne ne cewa ba ya kashe ta, ko da ya fita ("Sabuwar tawa tana kashe kanta kai tsaye. Ina jin haushin hakan"). Tana ci gaba da yin ƙara a ɗakin zama yayin da muke magana a teburin cin abincinsa, wanda ke da Tardis na yumbu a kai da ainihin zanen Peanuts mai kallo daga bango – wani abu mai tsada da ya ci £2,000. Iyayensa, duk malaman classics ne, haka suka kasance, suna barin TV a kunne ko da suna da baƙi.
Davies yana da shekaru uku lokacin da ya kalli William Hartnell yana regenerating a matsayin Doctor. "Wannan sashe ya ɓace daga rumbun adana BBC, amma yana ƙone a kaina."
Duk da "tsoron" da suke da shi ga talabijin, Davies ba zai taɓa iya gaya wa mahaifinsa cewa yana rubuta wa talabijin cikakken lokaci ba. "Mahaifiyata ta ce kada in gaya masa cewa ba ni da aikin yau da kullum na tara zuwa biyar, domin zai ci gaba da yi mini magana game da shi kuma ba zai taɓa fahimta ba. Don haka har mutuwarsa bai taɓa sani ba." A 1991, lokacin da Davies ya bar aikinsa na furodusan talabijin na yara don neman rubutu, bai gaya wa mahaifinsa, Vivian ba. "Lokacin da nake da wasan kwaikwayo a talabijin da na rubuta, zai tambaye ni, 'Yaushe ka yi hakan, to?' Sai in ce, 'A lokacin da na samu.'" Vivian ya kasance makaho shekaru 25 na ƙarshe na rayuwarsa, wanda zai iya sa shi ya zama "mai fushi kuma ya haifar da lokutan rashin kyau da ba su dace da shi ba" (don haka maganar "mutumin jiya"). Ɗaya daga cikin sakamakon makantarsa shi ne cewa mahaifiyar Davies dole ta ba shi labarin abin da ke faruwa a Queer As Folk. Davies ya fi son kada ya yi tunani a kan wannan. "Za ka iya tunanin ta na kwatanta rimming? Ina tsammanin na ba su shi a jajibirin Kirsimeti."
Tunawa ta farko da ya yi tun yana ɗan shekara uku da rabi, yana kallon ainihin Doctor Who, William Hartnell, yana regenerating. "Wani ya gaya mini kwanakin nan cewa ba ka da ƙarfin tunawa kafin shekaru shida, amma wannan ba gaskiya ba ne. Wannan sashe ya ɓace daga rumbun adana BBC, amma yana ƙone a kaina." Labari ne na asali ta hanyoyi da yawa; babbar nasararsa ta zo ne lokacin da ya yi nasarar shawo kan BBC don sake ƙaddamar da Doctor Who bayan hutun shekaru 16 (a yau, na lura ko da shawanwarsa tana da ɗan wasan Dalek a ciki). A lokacinsa na farko a matsayin showrunner, daga 2005 zuwa 2010, ya zama wasan kwaikwayo na 1 a talabijin na Biritaniya. A watan Yuni 2009, ya yanke shawarar barin a kan babban matsayi kuma ya koma Los Angeles, inda aka ba shi izinin rubuta Cucumber (game da wani mutum mai matsakaicin shekaru da ke fuskantar kunyar luwadinsa) don Showtime, amma ya ƙi tayin sake rubuta Skyfall da yin aiki a wani aikin Star Wars na George Lucas. Daga baya ya ƙi wani aikin rubutu a wani ƙaramin wasan kwaikwayo da ake kira Succession.
Sannan a 2011, abokin tarayya na Davies na shekaru 12, Andrew Smith, ya fara samun "hangen nesa na wata mace ta Edwardian tana masa murmushi cikin ba'a." Waɗannan sun zama alamun ciwon daji na kwakwalwa mataki na huɗu, kuma da farko an ba Smith watanni 18 kawai ya rayu. A wata hira ta 2007, Davies ya ce mayar da hankalinsa yana kan aikinsa, ya ƙara: "Idan ina rubutu, zan taka [AndreIdan ya sami bugun zuciya, zai faru a jikin abokin tarayyarsa. Amma lokacin da Smith ya yi rashin lafiya, akasin haka ya tabbata. Ma'auratan sun koma Biritaniya, kuma Davies ya bar aikinsa don zama mai kula da Smith cikakken lokaci. "Na ba kaina mamaki. Kafin hakan, da na yi tunanin ba zan iya ba—da na ɗauki ma'aikatan jinya, in kawo mutane, in ba da komai waje. Amma lokacin da abin ya faru, ka gane ba ka son baƙo ya kula da shi."
Davies tare da marigayi abokin tarayyarsa, Andrew Smith. Hoto: Godiya ga Russell T Davies
Duk da hasashen farko, Smith ya rayu har zuwa 2018. Davies ya ci gaba da aiki daga gidansu a Manchester—ya motsa Cucumber daga Seattle zuwa Canal Street kuma ya lashe mafi kyawun marubuci a lambar yabo ta Bafta Cymru don A Very English Scandal, da sauran ayyuka—amma da wuya ya bar gefen Smith. "Mun kasance tare shekaru 20, amma idan na tuna da shi yanzu, ina tunanin shekaru takwas na ƙarshe," in ji shi, muryarsa ta Welsh tana yin laushi. "Har zuwa lokacin, ba mu taɓa zama tare da gaske ba. Daga 2011 zuwa gaba, tunanin suna da haske. Ina tuna kusan kowace rana. Abin mamaki ne, domin akwai kusanci a cikin yanayin rayuwa-ko-mutuwa. Akwai gaskiya. Ya rayu fiye da yadda ake tsammani, don haka kowace shekara bayan hakan ta zama farin ciki."
Bayan mutuwar Smith, Davies ya rubuta cewa ya yi shekaru takwas yana zaune a gida. A aikace, wannan yana nufin kammala Years and Years, komawa ba zato ba tsammani a matsayin showrunner a Doctor Who, da rubuta It's a Sin wanda ya lashe lambar yabo ta Royal Television Society (game da rikicin AIDS), ƙaramin jerin tarihin rayuwa na Helena Bonham Carter mai suna Nolly (game da wani abin sha'awarsa na farko, tauraron Crossroads Noele Gordon), da Tip Toe, da sauran ayyuka. Duk da waɗannan manyan nasarorin sana'a, Davies ya yarda cewa "ya ɗan kasance kamar zuhudu." Sannan kyakkyawan fata nasa ya sake tashi. "Amma ina farin ciki da kallon talabijin. Ya kasance shiru, amma hakan ya yi kyau."
A bara, wannan kwanciyar hankali ta ɗan karye lokacin da Davies ya sadu da Oliver Cole, wani model mai shekaru 27, a Instagram. "Yawanci ina watsi da DMs, amma na kalli hotunansa na yi tunani, 'Oh, sannu!'" ya yi dariya. "Mun yi DM ga juna kusan watanni uku. Ba sexting ba. Ban yi tunanin wani abu makamancin haka ba, saboda shekarunsa. Amma ya kasance mutum mai kyau sosai har na yi tunanin zan ci abinci da shi. Ya zama fiye da hakan. Yana da kyau." Cole ya zama saurayi na uku na Davies. "Ba haka ba ne mahaukaci?"
Ina sha'awar yadda abokan Davies suka amsa ga bambancin shekaru 36 tsakaninsu. "Duk sun kasance masu ladabi sosai. Na tabbata cewa a bayana, wasu daga cikinsu suna cewa: 'Me ke faruwa?' Amma sai sun sadu da shi. Yana da ban mamaki sosai. Shi ɗan Australiya ne, kuma yawanci sukan kasance masu tauri kuma suna gaba da wasa kuma sun san abin da suke tunani. Ina jin tsoron abin da [furodusan Davies na dogon lokaci] Nicola Shindler za ta yi tunani. Sai ta sadu da shi ta ce: 'Oh! Na fahimta, yana da kyau.'"
Shin Smith ya ƙarfafa Davies ya sadu da wani bayan mutuwarsa? "Zai yi farin ciki sosai. Likitansa yana wani asibiti lokacin da sakamakon scan na ƙarshe ya zo yana cewa zai mutu. Ta buga mini waya ta ce: 'Zan iya zuwa asibiti gobe in gaya masa, ko kai.' A gaskiya, na ji alfarma in gaya masa. Na yi tunanin ya fi kyau ya zo daga gare ni fiye da kowa. Kuma wannan yana nuna yadda yake da kyau—lokacin da na gaya masa, abu na farko da ya ce shi ne: 'Ina jin tausayinka.' Na ga hakan ban mamaki. Babu wanda ya san ni fiye da Andrew, kuma ina tsammanin zai yi baƙin ciki ya ga ni ni kaɗai."
Davies yana raba lokacinsa tsakanin gidaje a Manchester da Swansea, kwafi na juna, da kayan abinci iri ɗaya da kofuna na Pantone (zaɓin yau rawaya ne). Ya "ajiye kamar mai rowa" tun farkon shekarun 90, lokacin da aka gaya masa ba zai yiwu marubuta su sami kuɗi ba. Wannan ajiyar ta ba shi damar kula da Smith a cikin shekarun da ba zai iya aiki ba.Bai yi aiki ba, amma har yau yana fama da kashewa. "Har yanzu ina rowa. Idan ina son riga mai tsada £20, wata murya tana cewa: 'Zan iya biya hakan?' Ana biyana albashi mai kyau, amma zan ga wani abu a kan layi da nake so na £30 in yi tunani: 'Wannan ya yi yawa!'" A ƙarshen shekarun 90, yakan fita a Canal Street kowace dare na mako – ya sadu da Smith a gidan rawa na Cruz 101 minti 10 kafin rufewa – amma a kwanakin nan ya fi farin ciki da rubutu, ko a gaban TV, kuma yana jin tsoron liyafa. Kate Bush ta gayyace shi cin abinci a lokacinsa na farko a Doctor Who, amma har yanzu bai tsai da ranar ba.
A watan Janairu, Cole ya shawo kan Davies ya yi hutu na farko cikin shekaru 14, zuwa New York. "Ya kasance da kyau," ya yi murmushi. "Ko da yake ba ni da sha'awar tafiya ta halitta, ba zan iya jure filayen jirgi ba, suna da muni." A watan Nuwamba da ya gabata, Cole ya wallafa bidiyon kansa a cikin Tardis. Shin shi masoyin Doctor Who ne? "Shi ne, amma hakan yana ɗaukar kusan minti biyar na tattaunawa; ba wai muna zaune muna tattauna [abokin gaba na wasan kwaikwayo] the Rani ba. Lokacin da ya zama dangantaka, na ba da rahoto ga shugabannin Doctor Who, domin kada wani ya yi ƙoƙarin cewa ina cin zarafin matsayina ta hanyar fita da masoyi." A lokacin da ya fi girma, wasan kwaikwayon yana jawo masu kallo miliyan 13, wanda ina ba da shawara yana wakiltar babban tafki na masoya don saduwa. "Kuma ba su da yawa da za ka fita da su," ya yi dariya. "Ka san hakan gaskiya ne!"
Idan Davies yana da raini mai ban dariya ga wasu daga cikin masoyan wasan kwaikwayon da suka fi tsanani, to ji ya zama na juna. Shekaru 21 bayan ya ɗaga Doctor Who zuwa matsayi da ba a taɓa gani ba, lokacinsa na baya-bayan nan a matsayin showrunner ya kasance mai raba ra'ayi, inda wasu masoya suka soki labarun da suka rikiɗe da ƙarshen makirci marasa daɗi. A watan Yuni, ficewarsa ya bar wasan kwaikwayon a wani mawuyacin lokaci. Haɗin gwiwa da Disney+ da BBC ya ƙare bayan yanayi biyu na ƙarancin kallo, kuma yanzu wasan kwaikwayon ba ya kan iska yayin da ake ba da samar da jerin na gaba don gasa.
Shin martanin ya ji masa rauni? "Ba ni da rauni da hakan," in ji shi. "Na yi tunanin abin kunya ne. Kuma watakila ina mamakin ko ya kamata in yi wani abu daban. Sai dai ina matuƙar son abin da na yi!" Ya fashe da dariya. "Ina aiki tuƙuru a kan wasan kwaikwayona, kuma ina matuƙar son su. Ina tsammanin akwai raƙuman ƙiyayya, kuma watakila cikin ƴan shekaru za a ƙara yaba shi. Amma NI na yaba shi!" Me yake tsammanin zai buƙaci don ceton wasan kwaikwayon? "Wani ɓangare na matsalar shi ne cewa da alama akwai tashin hankali da fashewa da yankewa a BBC. Damuwata ita ce babu wanda ke can don ya ba shi goyon baya. Kana buƙatar furodusa yana cewa: 'Me game da Doctor Who? Me game da Doctor Who? Me game da Doctor Who?' kowace rana. Wannan ya tafi. A 2005, na yi shi daidai kamar wasan kwaikwayo na ITV na 9pm, da yawancin rhythm na rayuwar yau da kullum. Wannan ra'ayi ya tafi yanzu, don haka watakila zai ƙare a matsayin wasan kwaikwayo na tsaye [shirye-shiryen bidiyo da aka tsara don kallo a wayar hannu] tare da cliffhanger kowane minti biyu? Idan ya dawo, ya kamata ya kasance wani ɓangare na duk abin da sauran talabijin ke yi." Ba zai faɗi wanda ya kamata ya zama Doctor na gaba ba. "Na yi kuskuren cewa wane ne zai yi kyau, kuma nan da nan, 'yan jarida suna ƙofar su."
Ya yi magana da Harvey Weinstein game da kuɗi. "Zai iya magance duk matsalolinmu, amma ba zan iyaBa zai iya jure wa waya da mutumin ba. 'Ya ba ni rawar jiki.'
A yanzu, Davies ya kasance wakili mai 'yanci, kuma zai zama wauta a yi ƙoƙarin hasashen matakinsa na gaba. Bayan nasarar Queer As Folk, nan da nan ya ɓata wa wani ɓangare na masoyansa na luwadi rai ta hanyar yin romcom, Bob and Rose, inda wani ɗan luwadi ya ƙaunaci mace. Lokacin da It's a Sin ya karya tarihin yawo, ya bi shi da ƙaramin jerin game da korar Noele Gordon daga Crossroads a 1981 — ba daidai da lokaci ba. A 2015, bayan nasarar kallo na jerin huɗu na farko na Doctor Who, shugaban kwamitin wasan kwaikwayo na BBC ya ziyarce shi a gida. Davies ya yi amfani da sha'awarsu don yin sigarsa ta A Midsummer Night's Dream, tare da Elaine Paige. Ya yi magana da Harvey Weinstein game da samar da ƙarin kuɗi, amma ya ji tsoro. 'Ya kamata in kasance ina bin kuɗin — zai iya magance duk matsalolinmu — amma ba zan iya jure wa waya da mutumin ba. Ya kasance mai baƙin ciki kawai, ya ba ni rawar jiki. Furodusata Faith Penhale, wadda ke cikin wayar, ba ta kasance a can ba. Tana da jadawalin, kasafin kuɗi — kuma ya watsi da ita kawai.'
Duk da cewa sunansa yanzu yana ba shi wani 'yanci na ƙirƙira, Kirsimeti 2017 ya sami Davies a wani matsayi inda BBC da farko ta ƙi Years and Years, yayin da It's a Sin da farko BBC, ITV da Channel 4 suka ƙi (wani shugaba ya tambaye shi ko ya san Elton John kuma ya ba da shawara cewa zai iya mai da shi wasan kwaikwayo na kiɗa). Ya ce yana son wata magana ta Tolstoy: 'Juyin juya hali dole su ci gaba da faruwa.' Sai dai, 'Na duba ta kwanakin nan kuma babu wani rikodin da ya ce haka, don haka watakila na ƙirƙira ta!' Shin yana jin cewa yana buɗe ƙofofi kawai don ya ga sun rufe kuma? 'Ka san waɗannan hinges na pneumatic a hankali da suke rufewa kai tsaye? Ina tsammanin abin da ke faruwa ke nan. Suna "hisss" rufewa a hankali.'
Ra'ayoyinsa suna girma shekaru — shekaru da yawa ma — kafin a rubuta su a shafi cikin sauri (ya fara tunanin It's a Sin fiye da shekaru 30 da suka wuce; an rubuta wani rubutun Doctor Who a cikin ƙarshen mako). Ba kamar yadda aka saba ba, rubutunsa na farko yakan zama rubutunsa na ƙarshe. Bonham Carter ta ce game da Nolly: 'Wannan shi ne karo na farko da na taɓa shiga cikin wani abu inda rubutun da na karanta ya ƙare daidai a kan allo. Babu wani abu da aka yanke, babu wani abu da aka sake tsara.' Davies kwanan nan ya sami sabon ra'ayi kuma ya aika rubutun farko ga furodusarsa, sai dai ta tuna masa cewa ya riga ya ba ta shi a 2018. Bayan mummunan rauni na Tip Toe, yana fatan ya ba wannan ƙarshen farin ciki. 'Ina matuƙar farin ciki. Waɗannan kwanaki ne masu ban mamaki ga talabijin, don haka ina fatan za a yi shi.' Kuma idan ba haka ba? 'Zan rubuta wani abu dabam.' Juyin juya hali za su ci gaba da faruwa.
The Queerest of Folk: A Life in Television na Russell T Davies, an wallafa shi a ranar 8 Oktoba ta Transworld a £25. Don tallafa wa Guardian, yi oda kwafinka daga guardianbookshop.com
Tambayoyin da ake yawan yi
Ga jerin tambayoyin da ake yawan yi dangane da labarin Russell T Davies
Wanene Russell T Davies
Shi ne sanannen marubucin TV na Biritaniya An fi saninsa da dawo da Doctor Who a 2005 da rubuta wasan kwaikwayo kamar Queer as Folk da Its a Sin
Menene labarin ya kunsa
Hira ce ta sirri Davies yana magana game da rayuwarsa game da mutuwar mijinsa tsoronsa da abubuwan ban mamaki da ya fuskanta da masoya
Menene ma'anar taken Mutum ɗaya ya zo gidana
Yana nufin labarin da Davies ya ba da game da wani masoyi mai tsanani Masoyin ya yi tafiya zuwa gidansa ya buga ƙofarsa
Me yake cewa game da masoya masu tsanani
Yana ganin su abin tsoro Ya ambaci cewa wasu masoya suna jin sun mallaki shi ko halayensa Ya ce irin wannan kulawa na iya zama kamar barazana
Me ya faru lokacin da masoyin ya zo
Davies ya ce wani mutum ya zo gidansa Abin ya dami shi domin ya ketare layi daga zama masoyi zuwa mamaye sararin sirrinsa
Me ya sa yake ajiye wuƙa a ƙofar
Yana yin hakan domin yana tsoro Ya ce ya sami barazana kuma yana jin buƙatar kare kansa a gidansa
Shin da gaske yana tsoro koyaushe
Da alama yana da matuƙar taka tsantsan Ya ambaci takamaiman tsoro da ke sa shi ajiye wuƙar amma kuma yana rayuwa ta al'ada Tsoron gaskiya ne amma yana iya sarrafa shi
Menene ma'anar samun ƙauna bayan asara a wannan mahallin
Mijin Davies Andrew Smith ya mutu a 2018 Labarin ya yi magana game da yadda Davies ya jimre wa wannan baƙin ciki kuma daga ƙarshe ya sami sabon abokin tarayya
Wanene Andrew Smith
Shi ne mijin Russell T Davies Sun kasance tare shekaru da yawa kafin ya mutu daga ciwon daji na kwakwalwa
Yaya Davies ya jimre wa mutuwar mijinsa
Yana magana game da baƙin ciki mai zurfi na rasa abokin tarayya Ya ce lokaci ne mai duhu sosai amma daga ƙarshe ya sami hanyar ci gaba
Shin ya yi tunanin zai sake samun ƙauna
Da alama bai tabbata ba Amma ya sami sabon abokin tarayya Ya yi magana game da yadda abin mamaki da ban mamaki ne ya sake jin ƙauna
Menene tsoron da aka ambata a cikin taken
Tsoron lafiyar jikinsa ne Shi ne dalilin da ya sa yake ajiye wuƙa a ƙofar
