Rupert Everett yana fama da zafin rani. Hakan ya mayar da shi lokacin bazara na shekarar 1976, lokacin yana 17, yana kwance a rana, cikin natsuwa kamar dabbobi masu tafiyar hawainiya, tare da makomarsa gaba ɗaya a gabansa. Abubuwa sun bambanta sosai yanzu. "Lokacin da kake matashi, yanayin zafi yana da kyau. Amma idan kana da kiba kamar ni yanzu, ba shi da kyau sosai," in ji shi.
"Ba ka da kiba," in ji mai tallata shi, tare da tabbatarwa cikin farin ciki.
"Ina da kiba," in ji Everett, cikin rawar muryarsa mai iska, mai girman kai.
To, babu ɗayanmu da ya rage siriri kamar yadda muka kasance, na shiga ciki, kuma watakila ka kasance da siriri sosai a lokacin.
Everett ya ba ni kallo mai ban mamaki wanda ke nuna, yaya za ka yi haka. "A'a, ban kasance ba. Na yi kyau sosai a wani lokaci. Ina da tsoka. Komai." Yana magana ne game da zamaninsa na zinariya a fina-finai, lokacin da yake babban jan hankali a akwatin ofishin. "Ya kasance ɗan gajeren lokaci. Ina kiransa shekarata ta Hollywood." Ya yi dariya. Everett yana da dariya mai ban sha'awa—wani sauti mai wuya a ji. Ɗan tashi a sauti a nan, ɗan gajarta a can, kuma za ka gane yana jin daɗi. Wani lokaci, kawai ya fashe da dariya.
Lokacin da yake magana ya fara ne a shekarar 1997, tare da dawowarsa a matsayin babban abokin gay na Julia Roberts a My Best Friend's Wedding. Na ɗan lokaci, ya zama abin sha'awa na mafarki ga manyan 'yan mata na Hollywood—babban aboki mai ban sha'awa, mai ban dariya. Akwai aiki mai yawa da ake biya da kyau, amma ya makale a cikin jahannama na nau'in rawar. Everett ya fuskanci matsala uku: shi ɗan luwadi ne, mai girman kai, kuma yana da tsayi mara dacewa a 6ft 4in. ("Idan ka yi kasa don yin sumba a fim, ka zama kamar mahaukaci," in ji shi.) Ba zai taɓa zama mai sauƙi ba don samun rawar jagoranci. Kuma haka ya kasance.
Ɗanɗanon nasararsa na farko ya zo shekaru 16 da suka gabata tare da Another Country, wasan kwaikwayo na Julian Mitchell da aka saita a makarantar sirri da ke mulki da Bs uku: cin zarafi, son zuciya, da luwadi.
Everett ya ci gaba da yin tauraro a cikin fim ɗin, wanda ya dace sosai a matsayin ɗan tawaye mai sha'awar jima'i Guy Bennett (wanda ya dogara da ɗan leƙen asiri na gaba Guy Burgess), saboda ya kasance ɗan haka. Ɗan wani babban sojan Birtaniya wanda ya zama mai hannun jari mai nasara, Everett ya girma a Norfolk da Essex, ya halarci makarantar sirri ta Katolika ta Ampleforth a Yorkshire, kuma daga baya aka kore shi daga Royal Central School of Speech and Drama saboda rashin biyayya.
Jama'a ba su fahimci yadda ya yi mugun hali ba har sai da ya buga wasu littattafan tarihin rayuwa guda biyu da aka rubuta da kyau: Red Carpets and Other Banana Skins a 2006, da Vanished Years a 2012. Ya ba mu labarai masu kaifi na kansa yana gwada tabar heroin, fiye da gwada cocaine, yana sayar da kansa don jima'i lokacin da yanayi ke da wuya, da alama ya ƙudura don lalata kowace dama da cin amanar kowace abota da ta zo masa.
Babu wanda aka keɓe a cikin littattafan tarihin, musamman manyan abokansa. Ya ce Madonna da Julia Roberts suna da "wariyar gumi," wanda ya same shi abin sha'awa. Roberts ta kasance "kyakkyawa kuma tana da hauka," kuma lokacin da ta damu, Madonna "tana da katsewar wutar lantarki kuma tsohuwar ma'aikaciyar mashaya mai kuka ta fito daga dakin sanyi mai narkewa." (Ba ta yi masa magana ba na dogon lokaci bayan an buga hakan.) Hotunan alkalaminsa sun kasance masu kaifi da ban mamaki kamar yadda aka lura da su sosai. Yana kwatanta bayyanarsa ta ɗan gajeren lokaci a The Celebrity Apprentice don Comic Relief (ya fita a rana ta farko), ya ce Alastair Campbell yana da "babban hanci mai dunƙule wanda aka yi don tashin hankali ko aƙalla luwadi" kuma Alan Sugar yana da "wannan rashin kunya na musamman ga duk attajiran barrow-boy." Everett ya kafa kansa a matsayin Hedda Hopper na zamani—mai tsegumi mara kunya.
Rashin tausayinsa ya kai ga sukar kansa. Ya kira kansa "babban dodo," "mai wuya," da "dan iska." Kuma wannan, tare da yanayi, shine abin da yake fama da shi a yau. Ya ce ba zai iya fahimtar mutumin da ya kasance a da ba.
Ka kwatanta shi, na ce. "Mai saurin fushi. Mai turawa. Mai yaudara. Mai kisa." Kai, jira—akwai abubuwa da yawa a can. Mai turawa game da aikinka, ina tsammani? "E, mai sha'awar. Amma ba daidai ba. Ina sha'awar ci gaba kawai, ba ainihin yin aikina ba."
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A cikin The Vortex a 1989. Hoton: Donald Cooper/Alamy
A gaskiya, ya ce a lokacin yana yin duk abin da zai iya don guje wa yin aikinsa. Koyaushe yana ƙoƙarin fita daga wasanni ko lalata su, tun daga farko. "A cikin Another Country, na yi mugun hali. Wannan wani abu ne da ba zan iya fahimta ba—yadda zan iya jin gaskiya don yin hakan. Har yanzu ba zan iya gane yadda abin ya faru ba." Yaya ya yi mugun hali? "Yin dariya ga kowa da lalata wasan. Yin ado kamar rabbi da zama a akwatin masu kallo yayin wasannin da ba na ciki ba." Ya saki dariya mai kama da hum, amma yana jin tsoro da gaske game da abin da ya yi. Marubucin wasan, Julian Mitchell, ya zo ya ga Another Country wata rana lokacin da Everett ya shirya wani mummunan wasa: "Sugar cubes da suka zama kwari yayin wasan shayi." Jarumin da ya sami kwari a cikin shayinsa ya yi kururuwa a tsakiyar wasan. "Ɗan nishaɗi yana da kyau, amma zan lalata abubuwa."
Kuma ya ci gaba da hakan, yana yin mugun hali a wasa bayan wasa. Lokacin da yake cikin The Vortex na Noël Coward, wani mai kallo ya rubuta masa yana cewa yana magana da ƙarfi sosai. Ya yi hakuri sosai kuma ya aika masa da gashin jikinsa a matsayin diyya. Wannan bai dame shi sosai a yau ba. Abin da ya dame shi shine rashin girmamawarsa ga masu kallo yayin da yake yin wasan. Sau da yawa yana cikin maye, yana fatan yana wani wuri.
"Ina da ragowar halin punk na manyan mutane," in ji shi. Me yake nufi? "Karya komai. Karya komai." Yaya hakan ya bambanta da, alal misali, halin punk na ma'aikata? Ya yi murmushi. "To, punk ba ainihin motsi na manyan mutane ba ne. Heroin shine mafi girman nau'in punk na manyan mutane, wanda ya kasance akasin haka." Ya yi kwaikwayon yin barci a tsakiyar tattaunawa. "Kona kanka da sigari—wannan shine nau'in punk na manyan mutane."
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'Koyaushe ina jin ina rasa wani rayuwa ta tatsuniya da ke faruwa a wani wuri' … Everett. Hoton: David Levene/The Guardian
Muna a wani cafe a Bloomsbury, yankin adabi na London, kusa da inda yake da gida. Everett, wanda ya cika shekaru 67, har yanzu yana da kyau kuma babba, yana da babban gashi. Amma yana kama da shekarunsa. Waɗannan kashin kunci masu kaifi na baya sun ɓace. Ya kasance yana da kyau sosai don yin rawar hali, wanda ya ce koyaushe yana so ya yi. Yanzu ya dace da su. A kwanakin nan, ba zai iya damuwa da gym, ko yoga ko Pilates ba, ko da yake ya san suna iya taimaka masa ya rayu tsawon rai. Yana jin daɗin tafiya da Labrador dinsa, kuma wannan shine iyakar motsa jikinsa.
Ko da lokacin da ya yi kiba a matsayin mai gina jiki a Hollywood, in ji shi, bai yi shi da kyau ba. "Na lalata kaina. Yanzu na kusan zama gurgu saboda hakan. Ban taɓa damuwa da yin duk waɗannan abubuwan ba, kamar shimfiɗa jiki, waɗanda suke da mahimmanci don ɗaga nauyi, saboda jijiyoyinka suna ƙara matsewa. Mai ban gajiya. Ban yi wani daga cikin waɗannan ba. Don haka yanzu ina tsammanin faɗuwata za ta kasance ta tsoka da kashi."
Everett yana da ladabi sosai. Ko da lokacin da ya je gidan wanka, yana tambaya ko na damu kuma yana ba da hakuri game da rashin ladabi. Wani lokaci, wani bangare mai ƙarfi yana fitowa. "Kana son sandwich ɗin naman alade?" ya yi ihu ba zato ba tsammani, tare da sha'awa sosai har yana kama da umarni fiye da tayin. Da alama yana cikin wani zamani daban. Akwai dalilai da yawa don kada a tambayi baƙo ko yana son naman alade—daga cin ganyayyaki zuwa addini—babu ɗayansu da ya shiga zuciyarsa. Kamar yadda yake, ba zan iya tunanin wani abu mafi kyau ba.
Na tambaye shi wace shawara zai ba wa matashi Rupert yanzu. "To, idan ya zo ga shiga gidan wasan kwaikwayo, ɗaya daga cikin abubuwan da dole ne ka ɗauka..." Maganar ita ce kowa ya biya kuɗi da yawa don ganinka, don haka ko da yaya baƙin ciki za ka ji, ko yaya kake tunanin kana rasa wani abu..." Jumlarsa ta ƙare, kamar yadda suke yi sau da yawa. "Koyaushe ina jin ina rasa wani rayuwa ta tatsuniya da ke faruwa a wani wuri. Wannan shine matsalata."
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A matsayin Oscar Wilde a cikin The Judas Kiss na David Hare, a Hampstead Theatre, London, a 2012. Hoton: Robbie Jack/Corbis/Getty Images
Wannan tsoron rasa abu yawanci yana da alaƙa da jima'i. Shin yana da sha'awar jima'i kamar yadda ya yi iƙirari a cikin littattafan tarihinsa? "Oh, e." Yana kama da ba zai iya wuce rana ɗaya ba tare da kwana da baƙo ba. "E! Ka tuna, juyin juya halin jima'i ya faru shekaru 10 kacal da suka gabata. Lokaci ne mai bunƙasa don 'yancin jima'i. Ina tsammanin mutane sun ji za su iya samun wani nau'in 'yanci. Na ji zan iya rabuwa da abubuwan da suka gabata ta hanyar jima'i. Cewa zai 'yanta ka." Ya raina asalinsa na gata—maras sha'awa, mai tsauri, da ra'ayin mazan jiya ta kowace hanya. Yana son rayuwa mai cike da kasada.
Shin yana da daɗi, rashin hankali, ko duka biyun? "Wani abu ne kawai da ba zan iya tunanin ba. Ba zan iya tunanin wannan mutumin ba. Ina tsammanin ka manta yadda hormones naka suke da ƙarfi idan sun bushe. Sannan ba zai yiwu a tuna da yadda wannan tashin hankali, waɗannan igiyoyin ruwa masu ƙarfi, suka ji ba. Amma waɗannan igiyoyin hormonal suna da ƙarfi."
Yana magana da daɗi game da darensa na tafiya a Hampstead Heath a London. Jin daɗin rashin sani; alƙawarin sigari masu haske a nesa; zama sarauniyar fata. "Hampstead Heath ya kasance kamar zama a cikin A Midsummer Night's Dream. Za ka gangara cikin duhu, duhu sosai, kuma za ka ji ƙarar ƙafafu na wani yana zuwa, sannan ba zato ba tsammani za ka ga taurarin hasken sigari, kamar taurari, gungun mutane, kuma za ka ji ana bugun wani da mari da muryarsa a cikin heath." Shin shi ne mai bugun ko wanda ake bugun? Ya yi murmushi. "Na fi zama mai kallo. Za ka nufi inda ake bugun, kuma wani lokaci dole ne ka yi tafiya mil da yawa." Don haka kawai ka kalli? "To, da gaske, ba na son yin nisa haka. Ina da ladabi sosai. Na tuna wani lokaci ina tunani: 'Allah na, wannan mutumin yana da ban mamaki.' Kuma na yi masa tafiya na kusan rabin sa'a, ina matsowa kusa, kuma daga ƙarshe na gane itace ce!"
Shin jima'i ya fi aiki ƙarfi? "Gaba ɗaya. Abin da na gane ke nan. Ko aiki ya kasance game da tafiya ne. Ƙoƙarin zama abin sha'awa. Wanda a fili ya fito daga jin cewa ban isa ba. Banza ta ba game da 'madubi, madubi a bango, wanene mafi kyau a cikinsu?' Banza sau da yawa tana game da rashin tsaro mai zurfi, ba game da jin yadda nake da ban mamaki ba."
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Tare da Firth a cikin Another Country. Hoton: Ronald Grant
Na dogon lokaci, ya ji kamar mahaukaci—kamar Gollum. Yana 15, tsayinsa ya kai 5 kawai. Lokacin da ya kai 18, tsayinsa ya kai 6 feet 4 inches—mutum mai kama da kwari. "Gindina ya kasance kamar ƙashi biyu da rami. Kuma ƙafafuna sun kasance kamar kwarangwal." Bai san abin da zai yi da sabon jikinsa ba, yadda zai tsaya ko riƙe kansa da kyau.
Shekaru kafin ya gina sabon jiki a gym, ya sami mafita mafi sauƙi. "Na haɗu da waɗannan sarauniya biyu a Tufnell Park waɗanda suke yin riguna, kuma suka yi mini gindi na karya, ƙafafu na karya, kafaɗa na karya, komai na karya." Kuma ya sa su a fina-finai? "E, a cikin komai." Shin daraktoci sun sani? "A'a! Ina zuwa gwajin tufafi da duk kayana."
Da alama yana kallon waɗannan shekarun farko da cakuda daɗi da tsoro. Yawancin abokansa sun mutu suna matasa—daga kwayoyi, barasa, bugun zuciya, hadurra, kuma ba shakka, AIDS. A matsayinsa na matashi, ya kasance cikin gungun masu rayuwa da sauri-mutuwa da sauri. "Ba zan iya tunanin zama da rai bayan 30 ba." Shin kana so ka kasance? "A'a, ba lokacin da nake 20 ba. James Dean ne. Ina so in mutu a hadarin mota."
Yanzu ya gane cewa asalin da ya ƙi sosai ne ya kare shi. Duk da kwayoyin da ya sha, bai taɓa zama mai shan kwaya ba. Kuma ko da tare da salon rayuwarsa mai rikici, ya ci gaba da zuwa aiki. "Akwai aikin tsakiya na aiki a ƙarƙashin duk wannan wanda ya kiyaye ni daga gefen. Kuma cikin mu'ujiza, ban taɓa kamuwa da HIV ba. Yawancin mutanen da na sani sun kamu." A cikin Red Carpets and Other Banana Skins, ya rubuta game da gano cewa saurayinsa na lokacin ya kamu da HIV kuma kawai ya tafi saboda ba zai iya jurewa ba. Rayuwa ta kamata ta zama mai daɗi, kuma wannan ba haka ba ne.
"Yawancin mutane kamar ni sun kamu da HIV kuma suka mutu. Wannan wani abu ne da za a yi la'akari da shi lokacin da ba zan iya fahimtar halina ba. Kuma na dogon lokaci, ba za ka iya gwada HIV ba. Don haka ba ka sani ba ko kana da shi ko a'a, kuma wannan ƙarin matsin lamba ne ga wanda ya zama sananne, saboda lokaci ne mai wuya ga ɗan luwadi."
Shin ya yi tunanin yana da HIV? "Na yi tunanin dole ne ina da shi. Haka kuma, mutane suna bi da ka da ban mamaki. Za ka je gidajen iyalai, kuma za ka ga suna ɗaukar faranti na mutanen luwadi don wanke su daban. Kowa ya ji kamar an kewaye shi."
Abin ban mamaki shine, cikin shekarun saduwa na yau da kullun, Everett yana kuma yin dangantaka da wasu shahararrun mata a duniya—Susan Sarandon, Béatrice "Betty Blue" Dalle, da kuma dangantaka ta shekaru shida da mai gabatar da shirye-shiryen TV Paula Yates, yayin da take auren Bob Geldof. Ba zan iya tunanin ka tare da Sarandon ba, na fara cewa; ina tsammanin za ta... Ya gama jumlata. "Ta haɗiye ni gaba ɗaya?" Ya yi murmushi ya cije sandwich ɗin naman alade. "To, ba ta yi ba. Ina son duk dangantakata da mata. Ban tabbata suna son ta ba, ko da yake." Me ya sa? "Domin na kasance mai zamewa sosai." Ta wace hanya? "Tafiya da wasu mutane."
Me ya sa ya ce matashin kansa mai yaudara ne? "Dangantaka," in ji shi nan take. "Ina son samun ƙarin." Don haka yaya wannan yaudara ta bayyana? "To, yin kamar ina jin abubuwan da suka dace yayin da ba ka ji ba." Kuma ka iya yin kamar? "E. Koyaushe ina da canji. Koyaushe ina ƙoƙarin matsawa zuwa abu na gaba. Babu wanda ya isa."
Shin Geldof ya san dangantakar da Yates? "E." Shin ya dame shi? "Ban sani ba." Yates ta mutu tana 41 a 2000 daga yawan shan tabar heroin. Na tambayi Everett yaya take. "Ta kasance mai ban sha'awa kuma kyakkyawa. Tana da wuya mai ban sha'awa da goshi kamar Tweety Pie. Mun haɗu da jin daɗin wasan kwaikwayo. Muna son abubuwa su kasance masu ban mamaki da haɗari. Ta kasance dutse mai rauni—mai ƙarfi, amma mai rauni sosai. Mu ’yan uwa ne."
Lokacin da aka kuskure su a matsayin ma'aurata na yau da kullun, ya ga wani salon rayuwa daban. "Zama ɗan madaidaici aljanna ce, saboda ka dace sosai. Lokacin da nake ganin Paula Yates, wata rana da dare muka tafi cin abinci tare da [jarumi] Gordon Jackson da matarsa Rona yayin da nake yin wasa da shi. Ya kasance mutum mai ban sha'awa. Kuma ya ji kamar duk gidan cin abinci yana murna da al'ada na ma'aurata biyu suna haduwa, kuma Gordon yana gaya mani game da samun jinginar gida, kuma na tuna ina tunani: Allah, wannan shi ne dacewa!" Na ci amana ba ka son shi, na ce. "Oh a'a, na ji kamar kerkeci da ke son komawa cikin heath. Amma na ji na ɗan lokaci: haka yake, zama na ciki."
Everett koyaushe yana ɗaukar kansa a matsayin baƙo. Bai taɓa yin nasara na dogon lokaci ba don zama na ciki a duniyar fina-finai. Ba abin mamaki ba, a mafi yawan lalacewarsa, ya fadi daga tagomashi. Don haka ya koma Faransa a 1986 na shekaru 12, inda ya yi hira da gungun mutane daban-daban—masu fasaha, mashahurai, masu shan barasa, masu amfani da kwayoyi, masu yin jima'i, da mutanen da ba su da gida a tituna. Ya kuma rayu na dogon lokaci a Italiya, Amurka, Brazil, da Ireland.
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Tare da Madonna a cikin The Next Best Thing. Hoton: AJ Pics/Alamy
Akwai fina-finai masu nasara da yawa (fina-finai biyu na St Trinian's, Shrek 2 da Shrek the Third, The Madness of King George, An Ideal Husband), amma akwai gazawa da yawa. Mafi shahara na iya zama The Next Best Thing daga 2000, wanda ya cutar da aikinsa na Hollywood da abokantakarsa da Madonna. Shin sun sulhunta? "E!" ya yi ihu. Shin zai so ya ƙara bayani? "A'a! Babu amfanin sake buɗe raunuka." Amma babban abu game da gazawa, in ji shi, shine yana buɗe kofofi da yawa. "Rashin nasara yana da kyau ga 'yan wasan kwaikwayo. Yana tura ka gaba. Kuma ba ka san inda za ka ƙare ba. Yana tilasta ka ka sake ƙirƙirar kanka."
Idan ba shi da lokutan rashin aiki, da bai taɓa rubuta littattafan tarihinsa ba, litattafai (Hello Darling, Are You Working? da The Hairdressers of St Tropez), da gajerun labarai (The American No, wanda ya dogara da duk ra'ayoyin rubutun fim ɗin da aka ƙi). Haka kuma da bai rubuta, samar, jagoranci, da tauraro a cikin The Happy Prince ba, fim ɗinsa game da shekarun ƙarshe na Oscar Wilde, wanda yake ɗauka a matsayin mafi kyawun aikinsa. Fim ne mai kyau, na ce, kuma mai ban mamaki mai da hankali, la'akari da cewa shi ne ke kula da komai. "To, ina tsammanin abin da na zama ke nan. Mutum mai horo sosai."
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Tare da Colin Morgan (hagu) a cikin The Happy Prince.
Ya ce abin kunya ne ya ɗauki har ya kai 60 don samun wannan horo. "Na yi nadama game da hakan, domin yana cikina a wani wuri. Amma na shagaltu da tunanin abubuwa marasa ma'ana." Kamar me? Ya yi dariya. "Jima'i. Idan na sami horo da wuri, ina tsammanin zan iya yin abubuwa da yawa. Kamar yadda yake, ina ƙoƙarin haɗa fim na biyu, amma a yadda nake tafiya, zan ce 'Action!' ina da shekaru 86."
Na ambaci mai shirya fina-finai na Portuguese Manoel de Oliveira, wanda ya fara fim ɗinsa na ƙarshe yana da shekaru 104 a 2012. "Wannan lokacin ne, masoyi! Babu wanda yake yin haka a yau." Menene fim ɗinsa na biyu game da? "Game da ni yana 17, lokacin da iyayena suka yi tunanin ba ni da iko—kuma haka nake—kuma suka yanke shawarar tura ni tafiya musayar zuwa Paris." Wannan lokacin ne hormones nasa suka yi yawa sosai.
Ina ɗauka jima'i ba shi da mahimmanci a gare shi a yau kamar da? "A'a." Ya ambaci #MeToo. "Ina da ƙaramin motsi na #MeToo na kaina." Me yake nufi? "Na shafe lokaci mai yawa ina cin abinci tare da maza masu ban gajiya, na yi tunani: Ba ni da sha'awar su kuma." Shekaru da yawa, ya kasance yana sha'awar tunanin maza—jikinsu, jima'insu—kuma daga ƙarshe ya same shi cewa yawancinsu marasa ban sha'awa ne. "Ba su zama abin da kake tsammani ba a ƙarshe. Babu wanda yake. Ina son wasu abubuwa na sama, amma ba zan iya ɗaukar tunanin su gaba ɗaya ba." Ya fashe da dariya. "Ba ramuka ba! Gaba ɗaya!" Don haka, ba ya jin daɗin shan giya, cin abinci, da magana? "E, ka sani. Don isa matakin farko, dole ne ka yi tafiya a rodeo ɗan lokaci."
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Tare da Bianca Jagger a 2002. Hoton: Dave Hogan/Getty Images
Ya ce yana mamakin canjin da ya samu. "Koyaushe ina tunanin lokacin da nake shagali da hira cewa zan kasance ɗaya daga cikin waɗannan masu shekaru 75 a cikin T-shirt mai launi a raves." Kuma ba ka zuwa shagali yanzu? "A'a. Ba ni da sha'awa. Ko kaɗan. To, da kyar ina sha'awar wani abu kuma." Yana kama da magana mai ban tausayi, amma ya sa ya zama kamar ya kai matsayi mafi girma na gamsuwa. "Ina sha'awar ƙurar ƙura da abubuwa makamantan haka." Wani dariya-hum. "Zan iya zama cikin farin ciki ina kallon bazara." To, me zai fi wannan kyau? "E, daidai. Ina son ƙananan abubuwa yanzu, Godiya ga Allah. Ina buƙatar saurin zuwa gidan wanka, ka damu?" ya tambaya.
Yayin da ya tafi, na yi tunani game da wata kalma da ya yi amfani da ita don kwatanta matashin kansa—mai kisa. Lokacin da ya dawo, na tambaye shi game da ita. "To, na kasance mai kisa. Ina kula da kaina kawai da jin daɗina. Wannan koyaushe yana da kisa. Ina tsammanin na ɗan kasance mai son kai. Na kasance mai tsegumi mai muni kuma na maimaita duk abin da wani ya gaya mini. Ina aron tufafin mutane kuma ba na mayar da su." Yaya ka ba da hujjar wannan hali? "Ban sani ba. Mai ban mamaki sosai. Ba zan iya ba. Ban san yadda na ba da hujja ga kaina ba. Na kasance mai kisa."
Shin ya rage son kai yanzu? Ya ɗan yi fushi. "Har yanzu ina da son kai sosai." Ya dakata. "Na yi sa'a sosai. Na lalace har wani lokaci, amma e, ina tsammanin na rage son kai. Wataƙila na fi kula da sararin wasu. Dole ne ka yi haka idan kana zaune da wani." Shi da Henrique, wani akawu na Brazil, sun yi shekaru 16 tare kuma sun yi aure shekaru biyu da suka gabata. "Da zarar ka zauna da wani, wannan shine ƙarshen hakan—in ba haka ba za ku rabu bayan mintuna biyar. Dole ne ka yi sulhu, ka ba da gaba."
Na tambaye shi abin da ya fi alfahari da shi. Ya ambaci fim ɗin Wilde, sannan ya ce kansa. Wannan yana da ma'ana—Rupert Everett shine mafi girman halittarsa. Yana 67, yana samun aiki fiye da yadda ya yi na dogon lokaci. Yana cikin jerin na biyu na Rivals a matsayin Malise Gordon mai suna mai ban sha'awa; yana taka rawar wani tsohon ma'aikaci mai sunkuyar da kai ga 5th Marquess na Anglesey, Henry Paget, a cikin fim ɗin Madfabulous; kwanan nan ya yi aiki akan almara na Littafi Mai Tsarki na Mel Gibson The Resurrection of the Christ; kuma shekara mai zuwa zai kasance a cikin wasan Harold Pinter No Man's Land, wanda Patrick Marber ya jagoranta, a Donmar Warehouse a London. Amma abin da ya fi faranta masa rai fiye da samun aikin shine cewa a ƙarshe yana ba da shi—da masu kallo—girmamawar da suka cancanci koyaushe. "Yanzu ina jin daɗin yin wasan kwaikwayo sosai kuma ina ɗauka da mahimmanci."
Ya cije sandwich ɗin naman alade ya ce ya ɗauki ɗan lokaci, am
