Ashley Walters da alama ya yi rayuwarsa cikin sauri. Kafin ya cika shekara 21, ya riga ya sami waƙa mai lamba 1, ya yi wasa a talabijin da kuma dandalin West End, ya zama uba, kuma ya yi watanni bakwai a kurkuku. Tun daga lokacin ya sami ƙarin abubuwan da suka faru daidai da tsawon wata rayuwa—ciki har da ƙarin yara bakwai—amma a shekarunsa 44, isasshen ruwa ya wuce ƙarƙashin gada don Walters ya sami hangen nesa game da ƙuruciyarsa. Ba wai duk waɗannan rayuwar sun bar tabo ba: lokacin da muka haɗu a Landan, yana cikin ƙoshin lafiya, fuskarsa ba ta da murɗi, idanunsa suna ƙyalli, gashin kansa an yi masa aski mai tsafta.
A farkon shekarun 2000, ya dace da wani salo na matasan Baƙar fata na Biritaniya a matsayin Asher D, mawaƙin rap daga Peckham mara galihu kuma da ake zaton cike da laifuka, wanda ya yi tafiya tare da ƙungiyar So Solid Crew mai taurin kan titi, ya shiga rigima da abokan hamayya na gabashin Landan kamar Dizzee Rascal, jaridu sun zarge shi, kuma ministan al'adu na lokacin Kim Howells ya kira shi "mawaƙin rap ɗan iska mai alfahari."
So Solid Crew sun kasance masu share fage a fannin hip-hop na Biritaniya, amma ra'ayin Walters game da waɗannan lokutan ba shi da kyau. "Komai banda kiɗa, ya kasance mummuna, ba shi da kyau," in ji shi. "Kiɗan ya kasance na Biritaniya sosai, amma idan ka kalli salo namu, tufafinmu, kayan ado, motoci, duk kayan Amurka ne da muke so mu kawo ciki." Wannan ya haɗa da bindigogi—ko da a yanayin Walters, makamin bindigar iska ce da aka gyara.
Asher D ba shi ne ainihin shi ba, in ji shi. "A bayan fage, a gaskiya, ina tambayar kaina ko ina yin abin da ya dace. Domin yawancin nasararmu tana da alaƙa da abubuwan titi: ba za ka iya zuwa wannan yanki ba saboda ana iya harbe ka; ba za ka iya yin wannan ba saboda wancan mutumin yana da rigima da wannan; kuma ya kasance, kamar, duk waɗannan siyasar."
Ya shiga cikin mutanen da ba daidai ba, in ji shi, "kuma hakan ya kai ni hanyar da ban damu ba kuma ... amma fahimtar ta zo mini lokacin da aka rufe wannan ƙofar a ɗakin kurkuku. Sai na ce: 'Tsaya. Ta yaya na isa nan?'"
Muna magana ne game da kwanakinsa na kurkuku saboda Walters yanzu yana sake duba su, daga wancan gefen ƙofar. Ya jagoranci fim ɗinsa na farko, Animol, wanda aka saita a wata cibiyar matasa masu laifi. Ba labarin kansa ba ne (Nick Love ne ya rubuta shi, na shaharar Football Factory), amma ya ce da yawa daga ciki sun dogara ne akan gogewarsa da tunaninsa na zaman kurkuku. "Ina so ya ji, ya yi kama da kuma ya yi sauti kamar yadda na ji, na gani kuma na ji sauti a gare ni."
Wannan nau'in fim ɗin yana zuwa da wasu tsammanin: zalunci, cin zarafi, dangantakar ma'aikata da fursunoni, matsayi na ciki. Animol ya cika da yawa daga cikinsu. Tashin hankali yana tashi daga fage na farko, lokacin da jarumin labarin ɗan shekara 15, Troy (Tut Nyuot), aka tilasta masa shigo da waya. Amma fim ɗin kuma ya ƙalubalanci waɗannan tsammanin ta hanyoyi masu ban mamaki, musamman da wani ɓangaren soyayya na ɗan luwaɗi da aka gudanar da shi cikin hankali da sha'awa. A wannan ma'ana, yana kama da Moonlight kamar Scum—"an ɗan ɗaga shi," kamar yadda Walters ya ce. "Ba na so ya ji launin toka da baƙin ciki kamar sauran fina-finan kurkuku."
Kamar Walters a ƙuruciyarsa, waɗannan samarin suna taka rawa, in ji Animol, suna ɓoye ainihin kansu don tafiya cikin yanayin tsoro, kunya, rauni, da ka'idojin namiji waɗanda ba su canza sosai ba tsawon shekaru. "Kowane hali a ciki, komai munin sa, komai yaudararsa ko tashin hankalinsa a wasu lokuta, duk ayyukansu sun samo asali ne daga tsoro," in ji shi. "Tunanin da mutane da yawa suka girma da shi, kamar ni, na namiji: zama mai tauri, kada ka ja da baya, mai haƙuri, ka riƙe motsin zuciyarka a kanka kuma kada ka yi kuka a gaban wasu. An rene ni da waɗannan dokoki da ka'idoji."Samarin da ke cikin damuwa, namiji, ubanni da 'ya'ya—ta wata hanya, waɗannan sun zama jigogi masu maimaitawa a aikin Walters. Akwai ci gaba, ina ba da shawara, tsakanin Animol da rawar da ya taka kwanan nan a cikin wasan kwaikwayo na Netflix da ake yabawa sosai Adolescence. Ya jagoranci kashi na biyu a matsayin ɗan sanda mai bincike da ya ziyarci makarantar wanda ya aikata laifin, yana neman amsoshi. Bangaren fasaha kaɗai ya kasance rawan ballet—Walters ya sami alamomi da yawa yayin da kashi ɗaya ya zagaya makarantar sakandare mai rikici—amma a kan haka, ya ba da wasan kwaikwayo mai zurfi, mara ƙarfi a matsayin uba da ke gwagwarmaya don haɗi da ɗansa matashi.
Ba haɗin da zai yi da kansa ba, in ji Walters, "amma jigon, ina tsammani, da ke gudana a ciki shine fallasa wani rukuni na mutane da aka ware. Kuma a Burtaniya ɗaya daga cikin manyan ƙungiyoyin da aka ware shine yara." Kuma musamman samari. "Tsawon shekaru an tura mu cikin danniya da rufe baki, rashin tambayar abubuwa da rashin tattaunawa da abokanka da takwarorinka game da yadda kake ji game da rayuwa ... Maza ba sa yin haka. Ina tsammanin mata suna samun sauƙi sosai. Shi ya sa muke samun yawan kashe kai sosai, musamman a cikin samari a Burtaniya."
Gwagwarmayar Walters da kansa ta wannan yanki zai zama fim da kansa. Mahaifiyarsa, Pamela, wadda ke aiki a gwamnatin gida, ce ta fi renonsa. Ta sanya shi a Makarantar Wasan Kwaikwayo ta Sylvia Young yana ɗan shekara bakwai (a matsayin ɗan wasan kwaikwayo, ya yi a cikin sigar wasan kwaikwayo ta Oliver!, yana da rawa a Grange Hill kuma ya koyi ballet da tap).
Mahaifinsa ba ya kasancewa galibi, in ji Walters. "Zai zo wata Lahadi ɗaya sannan ba za ka gan shi ba har wata huɗu. Sannan zai yi ƙoƙarin fitar da ni, sannan ba zai kai ni wani wuri ba sai ya bugu, sannan sai na dawo gida ni kaɗai." Ya mutu a 2005, a lokacin da suka yi sulhu. "Yana so ya zama uba; kawai ba shi da kayan aiki da albarkatu. Kuma ba shi da kyakkyawar farawa a rayuwarsa." An haife shi a Burtaniya ga iyayen Jamaica, an saka mahaifin Walters a kulawa, kuma yana shiga da fita daga borstal, sannan kurkuku, duk rayuwarsa.
Don haka lokacin da wannan ƙofar kurkuku ta buga Walters a 2002, ya ji kamar yana maimaita zagayowar. Sai dai shi shahararre ne, don haka duk sauran fursunonin sun san ko shi wanene. Lokacin da ya isa wannan daren farko, "duk wani abu ya ɓarke". Tsawon sa'o'i, mutane suna ta zagi, suna barazanar kashe shi da safe.
"Ba abin jin daɗi ba ne kwata-kwata," in ji shi. "An gwada ni, an gwada ni, matsi ne, akwai tsoro mai yawa. Amma ba ni da zaɓi. Gogewa ce da dole na shiga, kuma a gaskiya yana ɗaya daga cikin mafi kyawun abubuwan da suka faru da ni."
Ta yaya? "Ya tura ni ga tunanin da nake buƙatar yi: wanene nake so in zama? Me nake so daga rayuwa? Sannan, in duba kewaye da ni in ga abokaina da ƙaunatattuna da na amince da su, shin suna nuna hakan? Kuma amsar ita ce babbar a'a."
A zahiri yana sake farawa. "Lokacin da na fito daga kurkuku, ban san abin da zan yi da rayuwata ba, kuma ƙofofi da yawa a rufe." Aikin kiɗansa ya tsaya cak; ba shi da wakilin wasan kwaikwayo; ba a ba shi izinin tafiya Amurka ba saboda hukuncinsa. Abin farin ciki, mai shirya fina-finai na Biritaniya Saul Dibb ya rubuta wata rawa da ya yi tunanin Walters: Bullet Boy, labarin wani matashi da ya fito daga kurkuku yana komawa ga wani sanannen tarin matsaloli: bindigogi, rigingimu na gida, rayuwar gidan majalisa.
Fim ɗin, da wasan kwaikwayon Walters, an yaba su sosai kuma aikin wasan kwaikwayonsa ya fara tafiya: shirye-shirye kamar siHe na MTV mai shan wiwi ya fito a Top Buzzer, yana da rawa a cikin fim ɗin tarihin rayuwar 50 Cent Get Rich or Die Tryin', kuma yana cikin daidaitawar wasan kwaikwayo na baƙi na Andrea Levy Small Island. Sannan a 2011 aka zo da rawar da ta tura shi cikin manyan jama'a: Dushane a cikin Top Boy na Channel 4, babban ɗan fataucin miyagun ƙwayoyi a wani gida na Hackney wanda neman manyan abubuwa da mafi kyau ya kai shi abin da ya zama tafiya mai ban mamaki. Kamar So Solid Crew, an zargi Top Boy da ƙawata laifi da tashin hankali, amma Walters bai yarda ba. Yana jayayya cewa wasan kwaikwayon ya yi zurfi cikin hali, ɗabi'a da rikitarwa. Yawancin labarun da haruffa sun dogara ne akan mutane da abubuwan da suka faru na gaske. "Ya fito daga tushen, don haka ya ji da gaske kuma yana da wadata," in ji Walters. "Dukan abin da muke so shi ne, muna son masu fataucin miyagun ƙwayoyi su so shi. Idan masu fataucin miyagun ƙwayoyi sun kira mu su ce, 'Bro, wannan ne karo na farko da na ga an nuna ni yadda ya kamata,' to sauran ya kamata su daidaita."
A matsayin Dushane a Top Boy. Hoto: Chris Harris/Netflix
Ba masu fataucin miyagun ƙwayoyi kaɗai ba; Top Boy ya zama babban nasara a duniya – kuma mutane har yanzu suna danganta shi da rawar. "Yawancin lokaci, idan na yi tafiya a titi, sunana Dushane. Ina ciyar da lokaci mai yawa ina gaya wa mutanen da suka tsayar da ni: ni mutum ne ɗan shekara 44. Ba ni ma 'yaro' ba ne kuma. Ina da yara takwas, jikoki uku, ina biyan jinginar gida! Kamar, ni da gaske ba na cikin wannan rayuwar."
Bayan Top Boy, aikinsa na gaba ya kasance wani ci gaba, ko da yake gurɓatacce daga hangen nesa na yau. Bulletproof jerin shirye-shirye ne na 'yan sanda abokai wanda ba a taɓa gani ba ya nuna jagorori biyu Baƙar fata: Walters da Noel Clarke. Su biyun sun shafe shekaru suna ƙoƙarin samun jerin shirye-shiryen, suna ba da shi a matsayin Bad Boys na Biritaniya, kuma ana gaya musu zai iya aiki ne kawai idan ɗaya daga cikin haruffan fari ne. Lokacin da ya fito a Sky a 2018, shirin ya yi nasara, ya gudana har yanayi uku, amma an soke shi bayan zarge-zargen da aka yi wa Clarke sun bayyana a watan Afrilu 2021. A lokacin, Walters ya fitar da sanarwa yana cewa tunaninsa yana tare da matan da suka yi zarge-zargen. Shi da Clarke ba su yi magana ba tun daga lokacin, in ji shi. "Amma ba na so in ƙi kowa. Kowa yana da tafiyarsa kuma kowa yana da labarinsa da zai faɗa, kuma ina tsammanin idan sun shirya su faɗa, za su faɗa."
'Ba haɗari ba ne cewa rayuwata ta canza, kamar, abin mamaki.' Hoto: Jamie Salmons/The Guardian
Walters ya kasance yana fuskantar gwagwarmayarsa a wancan lokacin. Ya kasance mashayi da mai shan miyagun ƙwayoyi – galibi cocaine – na kusan shekaru 15, kuma abubuwa sun kai kololuwa watanni kaɗan da suka wuce, a watan Nuwamba 2020. "Wataƙila a shekarar farko, barasa da abubuwan sun kasance masu kyau," in ji shi. "Sun taimaka mini in yi wasa, sun taimaka mini in kasance mai ƙwazo a liyafa da sadarwa da mutanen da na ji tsoron yin magana da su a baya." Yana nufin yin wasa a fage? "Yin wasa a fage na fi 'yanci, wataƙila na fi zama ɗan iska – wa ya san yadda nake kama a wancan lokacin? Ina jin ina yin kyakkyawan aiki kuma ina ba mutane abin da suke so, amma gaskiyar ita ce, cikin sauri sosai ya daina aiki, kuma ya fara riƙe ni baya."
Matsayin karyewa ya zo a lokacin kulle-kulle, bayan gardama da matarsa game da shan barasa da miyagun ƙwayoyi. Ya auri Danielle, mahaifiyar ƙananan yaransa huɗu, tun 2013 (babban ɗansa yanzu ɗan shekara 27, ƙaraminsa ɗan shekara 10). Nan da nan ya nemi taimako. "Washegari da safe, matata ta sauke ni a wurin gyaran jiki kuma na yi makonni huɗu a can, na fito kuma ban sake shan barasa ko miyagun ƙwayoyi ba tun daga lokacin kuma yana zuwa shekaru shida a Nuwamba. Don haka, godiya sosai ga hakan. Baƙin ciki ya ɗauki lokaci mai tsawo kafin in isa can, kuma akwai gyare-gyare da yawa da za a yi da iyali da yara da abokai, amma ɗaya daga cikin mafi kyawun abubuwan da na taɓa yi." Ya kuma ƙaura daga Landan a 2021, kuma yanzu yana zaune a gabar tekun Kent. "A cikin shekaru shida da suka gabata, ba haɗari ba ne cewa rayuwata ta canza, kamar, abin mamaki. Gaskiyar ita ce, babu abin da ya fara aiki ... a gare ni har sai na kasance mai tsabta kuma mai hankali." Duba hoto a cikakken allo Walters da Stephen Graham a liyafar bayan bikin Golden Globe na Netflix a watan Janairu. Hoto: Gonzalo Marroquin/Getty Images for Netflix
Wannan ya haɗa da wasan kwaikwayonsa mai hankali a Adolescence da sabuwar sana'arsa ta darakta, wadda ta fara da ɗan gajeren fim a 2021 mai suna Boys, sannan kashi na wasan kwaikwayo na makarantar al'adu daban-daban Ackley Bridge da jerin laifuka na Victorian da ba a yaba sosai ba A Thousand Blows. Na ƙarshe ya zo ta hanyar tsohon abokinsa Stephen Graham, wanda ya yi tauraro kuma ya haɗa jerin shirye-shiryen - sun kasance abokai tun daga sitcom na 2004 Top Buzzer. Sannan Graham ya saka shi a Adolescence. Graham yanzu yana wasa jami'in jin daɗi a Animol, yana ba wa matasan fursunoni jawabi mai motsa rai game da kunya wanda ya ƙare fim ɗin a kan kyakkyawan fata.
"Wannan fim ne mai taushi, mai taɓawa inda kake ganin maza suna riƙe juna - har ma waɗanda ba ɗan luwaɗi ba suna rungumar juna," in ji Walters. "Akwai ƙauna, kuma ni haka nake da abokaina. Ina sumbantar abokaina a kunci, uban gidana zai sumbace ni, har yanzu ina sumbantar Mum, zan sumbaci yarana. Ina so in nuna hakan a kan allo - yadda samari suke da juna, har ma a cikin mafi munin yanayi, har ma lokacin da suke cikin mafi munin abubuwa."
Jigon ya dace da Walters, ba shakka, amma kuma shi ne yana ƙalubalantar ka'idojin namiji da dangantakar maza waɗanda suka tsara rayuwarsa, ta mahaifinsa, da wasu da yawa. "Na gane cewa rauni wani ɓangare ne na DNA na mutum kuma," in ji shi. Yana karya zagayowar.
Animol ya fito ranar 30 ga Oktoba a Burtaniya
Kuna da ra'ayi kan batutuwan da aka tada a wannan labarin? Idan kuna son aika amsa har zuwa kalmomi 300 ta imel don a yi la'akari da ita don bugawa a sashin wasiƙunmu, don Allah danna nan.
Tambayoyin da ake yawan yi
Ga jerin tambayoyin da ake yawan yi dangane da labarin Ashley Walters
1 Wanene Ashley Walters
Shi ɗan wasan kwaikwayo ne kuma mawaƙin rap na Biritaniya wanda aka fi sani da rawarsa ta Dushane a cikin jerin talabijin Top Boy Ya kuma koma fannin darakta
2 Menene labarin ya fi magana akai
Yana magana ne akan rayuwar Walters da aikinsa abin da ya wuce na wahala lokacinsa a kurkuku samun tsabta da hankali da yadda wannan juyi ya kai ga nasara a wasan kwaikwayo da darakta
3 Menene ma'anar tsabta da hankali
Yana nufin rashin amfani da miyagun ƙwayoyi ko barasa kuma Walters ya ce babu abin da ya yi aiki a rayuwarsa har sai ya daina
4 Wadanne matsaloli ya fuskanta kafin ya juya rayuwarsa
Ya sami karo da doka kuma ya yi zaman kurkuku a matsayin saurayi Rayuwarsa da aikinsa ba su tafiya ko'ina yayin da yake amfani
5 Me ya sa ya ce babu abin da ya yi aiki har sai ya sami tsabta
Domin aikinsa dangantakarsa da rayuwarsa ta sirri sun fara inganta ne kawai da ya daina amfani da miyagun ƙwayoyi da barasa Samun tsabta ya zo da farko komai ya biyo baya
6 Menene babban ci gabansa a wasan kwaikwayo
Babbar rawarsa a Top Boy wadda ta sa ya zama sananne a Burtaniya
7 Me kuma ya yi banda wasan kwaikwayo
Ya kasance cikin ƙungiyar garagerap ta Burtaniya So Solid Crew kuma ya fitar da kiɗa shi kaɗai Kwanan nan ya koma fannin darakta
8 Me yake jagoranta
Ya jagoranci kashi na talabijin ciki har da aiki a Top Boy yana bayan kamara da kuma gaban ta
9 Menene babban darasi na labarinsa
Cewa murmurewa na iya zama juyi Samun tsabta ya ba shi mai da hankali da kwanciyar hankali don gina ainihin aiki
10 Shin labarinsa ana nufin ya ƙarfafa mutanen da ke fama da jaraba
Eh ana yawan raba shi a matsayin misali cewa canji yana yiwuwa har ma bayan kurkuku da jaraba
11 Wace shawara mai amfani mutane za su iya ɗauka daga gogewarsa
Magance ainihin matsalar da farko saƙon Walters shine har sai ya magance amfani da abubuwan sauran ƙoƙarin ba su yi tasiri ba
12 Shin samun tsabta kaɗai ya sa ya yi nasara
A'a ita ce tushe Har yanzu dole ne ya yi aiki tuƙuru a wasan kwaikwayo da kiɗa amma tsabta ta sa wannan aikin ya yiwu
13 Menene ma'anar juya rayuwarsa a yanayinsa
Tashi daga kurkuku da
Babu abin da ya yi mini aiki har sai da na kasance mai tsabta kuma a farke': Ashley Walters kan wasan kwaikwayo, jagoranci - da kuma juya rayuwarsa
